Blinkie made by radiotrophic on tumblr here is the link.
Click here to check their account out for yourself!This website is where i rant about my feelings, topics i find interesting or just some ranting for the day.
Sadness is a such a intrusive thing. Always seem to stick with me where ever i go. While life might throw in surprises it doesn't matter as much in the end as nothing lasts forever, Not even this website.
Sometimes i just look at the bright orange sky and just wonder. How come such a world with suffering and pain be surrounded by beauty. The contrast in life is surreal.
I was watching this video today and i gotta say that i love Fallout New Vegas since it offers a large variety of roleplaying options, complex moral implications of each faction, and most important of all: the memeable moments.
I don't know if they will rush it like the original, but hopefully they don't mess it up. The original is still buggy til this day and requires a mod to patch all the incoming crashes. While the the original Obsidian team had really good devs, they usually have a bad tendancy to pick projects to be rushed with in a span of a year. Another example besides FNV, would be Star Wars Knights of The Old Republic II the Sith Lords.
When it comes to the gaming market today, everything is overpriced, mostly focused on big money productions with the lack of optimization, which could be a benifit to consumers who like me, can't affoard all of these PC parts due to the price increase with the chip shortages. Another thing is the rushed productions of all video games. Back in the day when i was a kid during the 2000s with my Ps2, i see all the games on there as complete because they had to be. since the release of consles like Ps3 and the Xbox, companies have slowly overtime rushed an unfinished product and expect people to pay for it, slowly fixing the game over time with updates and patch notes. This is annoying.
When it comes to the gaming market today, everything is overpriced, mostly focused on big money productions with the lack of optimization, which could be a benifit to consumers who like me, can't affoard all of these PC parts due to the price increase with the chip shortages. Another thing is the rushed productions of all video games. Back in the day when i was a kid during the 2000s with my Ps2, i see all the games on there as complete because they had to be. since the release of consles like Ps3 and the Xbox, companies have slowly overtime rushed an unfinished product and expect people to pay for it, slowly fixing the game over time with updates and patch notes. This is annoying.
It is currently night time, and i've had alot on my mind. I've been just thinking of how truly empty i feel. I know it is a waste of time to pity one self, but its hard not to. Sometimes thats all to think that i can do.. I don't know.
Does time heal wounds? Or do we just slowly forget the wound in question? This is just a late night rambling, however i cannot seem to shake of the feeling of immense loneliness. There is no one i can really hold, kiss, or let me just be me. Even with good friends that i trust.. i just can't seem to shake off the feeling of being on my guard and not telling anyone, anything.
Even in this blog website i've made because i got interested in easy fun coding where i can just do what i want, it helps me disassociate. Distractions is all anyone got, whenever it's just mindlessly scrolling on any social media, talk to a friend or parent for a short moment or just listening to music because that helps you somehow. I know life is about experiencing thing, living it, yet it always ends... Whether you like it or not. It is all out of my control, and that is something i hate. I try to fix, help, but no one accepts. Then i just get hurt from it anyway no matter how much i've tried. This is why i view now most things as temporary.
Just added a new image as a background, plus added a different color of white for the texts then a dark red color for the hyperlinks from now on. I haven't been scrolling these publican domain picture sites alot so i'm still unsure on what works and what doesn't since some can be weirdly cut. And yes i do quite like the background to be a bit blurry and pixliated. It gives me the expression of how hard it is to see the truth of life and how nauseous it makes someone be.
Today i inserted my first blinkie and credited the creator. It feels kinda good learning stuff stuff to code in while, still giving credits to the original creator so even if one person sees this website and checks them out then i'll be happy.
Finally updated the websites look a bit with red boxes and public domain pictures to make this server more readable. Anyway i had a thought of media like music or movies being lost to time. Imagine a work in the modern day being lost or unobtainable, being out of reach for consumers. It feels weird, uncanny even, but that is just a response to something unfinished or unknown, which is usually a reaction from our evolution.
It is a breezy night, was out on a walk and i can always feel the memories of the fall season. During sad days and bizare nights, the pouring rain, jazz playlist, and hot coffee keeps me warm inside as well as feeling the touch of the cold rain on my face on the outside. I usually don't like summer due to the heat. During the summer of 2026, it's been really hot and i don't see it going down any year after these. It's fascinating in the way we can remember touch, the temperature, and feeling we've had during that particular moment. Sometimes it's just easier to be yourself when the rain masks it to other people.